i stick with yes.

i've always asked myself, would i have been happier if i chose otherwise?

do you know the feeling when you so badly want to turn back time and choose heads instead of tails?
...the feeling when you realize you should've planted roses instead of yellowbells?
...or uttered the whole truth instead of keeping it to yourself?
...or chose white over black?

sometimes when we're not happy where our decisions have brought us, we wish we could just close our eyes, count to ten, open them, and then find ourselves back to the moment when we were about to make a choice. we tend to believe that choosing otherwise would have made us better persons.

what we might have missed is that at least one person in this world lost because he chose heads... or got pricked by the thorns of his rose... or suffered because he said too much... or got stained for choosing white.

as for me, i realized there really is no turning back. the yes will always be a yes not matter what. i may have made it too easy for certain people to walk right in and out of my life, that i ended up getting hurt... but that isn't what really matters in a failed friendship.

i tag 'failed' along friendship to emphasize it had ended, but it was a friendship that once made me feel like i was God's favorite! and now that i realized God doesn't play favorites at all, i've convinced myself that every good thing has a price.

maybe pain was the price i had to pay.

but i am happy now. the hurt comes knocking on my door sometimes, but even if by any magic, i'm back to where i was about a year ago, i'd still let him in. after all, i could honestly say i'm stronger now. he made life too easy for me, and he left when my knees were too weak.

now i'm standing on my own. :)

boredom

WANTED:

SOCIAL LIFE

contact me for suggestions...

or if you think you're one of us.

we'd love for you to join the club.

huhuhu. :(

and it's official!

i failed. pisti ka, chemistry.
ni ma de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ni ma de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ni ma de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kim is not my friend.
because kim is three.
HAHAHAHA.
corny.
i bet mariel won't get this joke.

April Fool's Day

Date : APRIL 1, 2008

Mission1
THE KIMBERLY AND MADELINE

time : 15:36:23
medium : TEXT MESSAGE
status : ACCOMPLISHED

0917******7 WONG, N.
OMG! Guess who i rode d elevator wit in waterfront!!:) Bago lang jud!!:)

0917******8 ONG, K.
Paolo?Haha.:)

0917******7 WONG, N.
Yeaaaaah!! oh your G!! May kasama xa... friend man cguro kay hndi ko klala!:) nagbaba xa sa 11th flr...hihi!:)

0917******8 ONG, K.
OM! Gi.apas gyud ko nya. Wla xa kblo naa ko sa iyang hometown? haha.. unfair. i think ikaw na jud ang meant 2 b nya...:)

0917******7 WONG, N.
Hahaha den nag tingin xa sakin...ayee! Ingun ko:remember me? ako ung nameet mo sa kfc. (referring to last year's embarrassing summer acquaintance) nagpa autograph kc frnd ko. Hahaha.:) den ingun xa: oh my god yes, ano ulit date ngayon?:)

0917******8 ONG, K.
happy april fool's! samoka!! grr. hahahaha :)

0917******5 ONG, M.
Cooole! samok ka samok!

0917******7 WONG, N.
Hahaha aylabyu madeee!:)

0917******5 ONG, M.
Samok ka!Samok!Aaaaaaaaaahhhh!

0917******7 WONG, N.
Hahahaha aylabyu!:) baws nalang sa uban. HAHA!:)

0917******8 ONG, K.
Grr..(n made's words) samok ka samok...Hahahaha!:)


Mission2
THE BESHY

time : 15:55:50
medium : TEXT MESSAGE
status : ACCOMPLISHED

0917******7 WONG, N.
Oh my god! guess cno na kita ko in ayala!! Shocking mehn!:O

0917******4 TONOGBANUA, M.
misha??:)

0917******7 WONG, N.
NO! it starts wit S and rhymes wit not!:)

0917******4 TONOGBANUA, M.
OMG, are u effin serious?? sabihin ko sana kanina dont tell me si s****! SHET. what's w/ u 2 and malls?! ERRR. inggit ako =S omg, wait nagkita kau? sinong kasama nya?? wait. gina process pa ng brain ko. BUT omg to the next level!!!

0917******7 WONG, N.
HAHAHA oh ur G! Yesyesyo! at frst, akala ko mali lang ako so nagbalik ako.. BUT no! i was ryt! hahaha nag hi xa tapos tinanong ko ano gngawa nya d2.. friend nya daw tga cebu!! :)

0917******4 TONOGBANUA, M.
wait lang...omg!! sino kasama nuya nung nag talk kau? kilala mo? san specifically kau nag talk? ano ung whole conversation nyo? un lang? nandyan pa siya? DETAILS PLEASE!! :(

0917******7 WONG, N.
Hindi ko klala...pero frnd cguro kc nag bisaya man. sa may groceries.. HAHA! sabi nya: uy, musta na? anong date ngayon? Sabi ko: im feeling gra8! its apr1, happy april fools!

0917******4 TONOGBANUA, M.
HAHA very funny. NOT >=\ i hate u. :'( bantay ka lang ba...

0917******7 WONG, N.
Hahaha yehes!:) pareho kayo ni kimong..paolo version lang sa kanya. :)

0917******4 TONOGBANUA, M.
:(( at least hindi kau meant to be!!! UGH. >=\

0917******7 WONG, N.
Aylabyu besh!:)

0917******4 TONOGBANUA, M.
TSE. magkalimutan na tau! >=\ haha =P


Mission3
THE CALEJES

time : 16:20:27
medium : TEXT MESSAGE and YAHOO MESSENGER
status : FAILED

0917******7 WONG, N.
Hahaha mar may chka ako...may bagong girl na bya xa (referring to HANS, M.). Bt dont tel...

0917******6 CALEJESAN, M.
Haha!Chka2!sino man?c m**** ito right?

0917******7 WONG, N.
Yup! Ayeee affected ka?=P Michelle Go...

(Yahoo Messenger conversation in ahia's computer. anyway, the meat of the story was...)

calejesan@yahoo.com
chika! who??? i was about to reply na sana...

nicrae_green@yahoo.com
michelle go nga... na hurt ka mar???

calejesan@yahoo.com
honestly, i'm happy for him...

nicrae_green@yahoo.com
ayyyyy...cge gud! atik lang bitaw mar! happy april fools!


Mission4
THE JEEBOY

time : 20:39:25
medium : TEXT MESSAGE
status : ACCOMPLISHED

0917******7 WONG, N.
Jeebs! Nadaganan daw c katrina halili ug camera crane pag shooting nila??

0922******8 BLANCO, J.
Btaw?? Asa ka kdungog?

0917******7 WONG, N.
Sa news! tanaw dayun! kay hapit na mahuman!!

0922******8 BLANCO, J.
Ay nya nlng ko tan.aw..na unsa iya nawng?

0917******7 WONG, N.
Luud kau! Gshow sa tv.. na trap sya sa ilawm! ambot na unsa iya nawng.. dghan dugo!

0922******8 BLANCO, J.
Kyata btaw? ayay akong crush patay!

0917******7 WONG, N.
Oo! Kaau! haha! shagit bitaw na xa: araaaay ilad lang hapy april fools!

0922******8 BLANCO, J.
GEEH!KYATA WAY ANA O!HAHAHAHA