GAAH!
i hate thinking too much.
God, please tell me i'm overthinking.
coz if it's real, i think it's gonna hurt
twice as much as it did before. :(
i'm scared.
27.1.09
19.1.09
=)
oftentimes, we find ourselves afraid of being away from the people we love. and i've notice it's more than the issue of trust or distance or time.
it's change.
we're scared that they've changed... without us by their side. eventually, we blame that for hurting us. but really, change doesn't hurt us.
we hurt... because we close our eyes and hold on to the image of who they used to be. we pray hard that in time, the image becomes real. truth is, it'll never be real again.
we find that we don't know them anymore, at least not as much. what used to make them laugh, how they prefer their breakfast cooked, their movie nights, their inside jokes... these become a thing of the past.
so we gradually learn that new look on our face that would crack them up, how to cook scrambled eggs with cheese instead of the usual sunnyside up... we learn that what used to be movie night is now booze night with the guys. we learn to live with who they are now.
because at the end of the day, there's this one little thing in them that reminds us of who we used to love. deep inside, they still cry over cheesy novels and are still afraid of the dark. and when we find that one little thing, we realize--we love them just the same. :)
it's change.
we're scared that they've changed... without us by their side. eventually, we blame that for hurting us. but really, change doesn't hurt us.
we hurt... because we close our eyes and hold on to the image of who they used to be. we pray hard that in time, the image becomes real. truth is, it'll never be real again.
we find that we don't know them anymore, at least not as much. what used to make them laugh, how they prefer their breakfast cooked, their movie nights, their inside jokes... these become a thing of the past.
so we gradually learn that new look on our face that would crack them up, how to cook scrambled eggs with cheese instead of the usual sunnyside up... we learn that what used to be movie night is now booze night with the guys. we learn to live with who they are now.
because at the end of the day, there's this one little thing in them that reminds us of who we used to love. deep inside, they still cry over cheesy novels and are still afraid of the dark. and when we find that one little thing, we realize--we love them just the same. :)
17.1.09
10
Write ten statements, intended to different people - things you've always wanted to tell them. Never tell which one is to whom.
1. i never knew how much you mean to me until the time when i thought i'd lose you. please be strong, we can fight this.
2. thank you for the random notes on my planner. they always ALWAYS make my day. :)
3. i'm happy with how things are between the both of us now. you remain special, and you will always be... =D
4. you're the one person i could tell everything to. it's funny how you could tell how i feel before i even say it. i hope fate decides to be nice to us this year. :)
5. i miss being one of the boys and listening to you sing eraserheads songs in the trike. you're like a brother to me, and you're great at that!
6. thank you for taking me out once in a while even though you live so far away. i know you're always busy, but i hope we could do this more often.
7. no matter how much i deny it, i know things have changed over the past months. i just hope you know i'm still here for you... i'd punch him in the face if he becomes an ass. =9
8. we've known each other since high school, but i never got to appreciate you as much as i do now. i'm looking forward to more bittersweet moments with you people!
9. you have no idea how much i care for you even though you piss me off most of the time. take care of that heart coz i still hate her. hehe :P
10. i miss you every single day, and i guess i will for the rest of my life.
1. i never knew how much you mean to me until the time when i thought i'd lose you. please be strong, we can fight this.
2. thank you for the random notes on my planner. they always ALWAYS make my day. :)
3. i'm happy with how things are between the both of us now. you remain special, and you will always be... =D
4. you're the one person i could tell everything to. it's funny how you could tell how i feel before i even say it. i hope fate decides to be nice to us this year. :)
5. i miss being one of the boys and listening to you sing eraserheads songs in the trike. you're like a brother to me, and you're great at that!
6. thank you for taking me out once in a while even though you live so far away. i know you're always busy, but i hope we could do this more often.
7. no matter how much i deny it, i know things have changed over the past months. i just hope you know i'm still here for you... i'd punch him in the face if he becomes an ass. =9
8. we've known each other since high school, but i never got to appreciate you as much as i do now. i'm looking forward to more bittersweet moments with you people!
9. you have no idea how much i care for you even though you piss me off most of the time. take care of that heart coz i still hate her. hehe :P
10. i miss you every single day, and i guess i will for the rest of my life.
12.1.09
guess who's coming to town!
nope, not the bearded old man in a red jumpsuit showing off his beer belly...
SANTA was sooo last month! i have someone better in mind...
wait, there's four of them!
i just hope they play the song 20 Dollar Nose Bleed from their new album, and then *poof* Brendon from Panic at the Disco appears to sing his part! yes, i'm a dreamer :P
thank you, billy boy, for the best news i've heard since i discovered cold rock ice cream!
and thank you, mama, for the best valentines' day gift i could ever imagine. heehee =D
SANTA was sooo last month! i have someone better in mind...
wait, there's four of them!
Fall Out Boy is the bomb yo.
*tear*
click here for more AWESOME details.
i just hope they play the song 20 Dollar Nose Bleed from their new album, and then *poof* Brendon from Panic at the Disco appears to sing his part! yes, i'm a dreamer :P
thank you, billy boy, for the best news i've heard since i discovered cold rock ice cream!
and thank you, mama, for the best valentines' day gift i could ever imagine. heehee =D
permanent jet lag, please take me back!
i think my biological clock has changed...
hmmmm jet lag?
more like net lag!
HAHAHAHA...and i blame the person who must not be named!
(CLUE: puul na kaayo iyang pangan, cge lang balik2x sa akong recent posts. abi niya special kaayo siya kay pirmi lang imention sa akong blog... but no! its just that... she's always the joke.)
TTFN!
P.S. (oo)
hmmmm jet lag?
more like net lag!
HAHAHAHA...and i blame the person who must not be named!
(CLUE: puul na kaayo iyang pangan, cge lang balik2x sa akong recent posts. abi niya special kaayo siya kay pirmi lang imention sa akong blog... but no! its just that... she's always the joke.)
TTFN!
P.S. (oo)
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