a tribute to john christian almodal blanco.

when i die and this blog gets published for the whole world to read, everyone would know how much i appreciate you.

what a night. god knows how long this has been haunting my sleep. i feel so much better now that someone else knows. thank you.

thank you for listening... for being patient while i fought to open up.

thank you for being careful with your words so as not to hurt me. i know how difficult it is to point my faults out to me without making my tears fall.

thank you for being honest... for trying not to let the bias of our friendship meddle with the point you were driving at.

thank you for making me realize that what i've done doesn't make me the worst person in this planet... coz that's who i thought i was in the past months. thank you for showing me that i'm not the only one who made that mistake. thank you for trusting me with yours.

thank you for reassuring me that even after tonight, i will still be the same friend whom you've known since the start of college. thank you for not judging me.

thank you for opening my eyes to the reality that i've been trying not to face. i was scared. and i still am... i don't think the fear will ever subside. but i promise you, i will face this with open heart and mind.

it's hard to say this without the notion of having romantic motives, but i love you, and i mean it. my actions may suggest otherwise, but really, i do. it's a love-hate relationship, you and me. it's called sadistic love. i sadistically love you, jeebs. you're one friend i wouldn't trade for anything in this world. :)

hug nalang beh... or kiss in the dark! OR BOTH?
ay basig naai magselos! heeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D