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oftentimes, we find ourselves afraid of being away from the people we love. and i've notice it's more than the issue of trust or distance or time.

it's change.

we're scared that they've changed... without us by their side. eventually, we blame that for hurting us. but really, change doesn't hurt us.

we hurt... because we close our eyes and hold on to the image of who they used to be. we pray hard that in time, the image becomes real. truth is, it'll never be real again.

we find that we don't know them anymore, at least not as much. what used to make them laugh, how they prefer their breakfast cooked, their movie nights, their inside jokes... these become a thing of the past.

so we gradually learn that new look on our face that would crack them up, how to cook scrambled eggs with cheese instead of the usual sunnyside up... we learn that what used to be movie night is now booze night with the guys. we learn to live with who they are now.

because at the end of the day, there's this one little thing in them that reminds us of who we used to love. deep inside, they still cry over cheesy novels and are still afraid of the dark. and when we find that one little thing, we realize--we love them just the same. :)