"what happened to you? you're not the nicole i knew before."
...maybe it's coz you don't try hard enough to know what's up with me like you used to. i guess it's right-- when a person's still trying to win your heart, he puts so much effort to show you that he cares. but afterwards, when the feeling subsides, he suddenly forgets that he does.
it's funny how our walks home used to be so short. we'd talk about how my day went... and then his. and how scary or cheesy the movie we watched was. and why certain people are too much to give a damn. and before we even notice, we're in front of the neighbor's driveway... about to kiss goodbye. or walk some more and watch the stars.
i watched the stars tonight. they were beautiful like they always were. it felt good being able to gaze at the night sky again, but after sometime, it got lonely. the stars were perfect. the cold was relaxing. and the moon was smiling. but it was lonely. there wasn't a finger to point the big dipper to me.
but he walked me home. and it felt like the longest walk i've ever had with him. thank god for chemistry, we had something to talk about. i must admit i still learn a lot from him... it's just that he seems so distant already. it felt like walking with someone who's just about to know me. i know he feels the same, too.
well, at least he still cares. maybe tonight, he remembered.
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